If you ever want to figure me out, I think I'm most comparable to George from Dead like me first episode.
That logic is me in a nutshell that I don't take interest because it receives expectation from people who force themselves on you and expectation begets disappointment. So I don't let myself get curious or show interest because of a life time of people expecting shizz and I hate people saying "It's your obligation."
BS; I am not a parent and never plan on having kids. I don't owe the government or Texas anything just cause I happened to have been born in the US so I am not obligated to do anything I have no interest in. The list includes anything to do with my brother and his schooling or jury duty and a long list of other things.
Next time I get a jury summons, I am taking a knife to my throat or jumping off a bridge so I can't bother the government who seems to think it is my obligation. I am autistic as many signs point out, I can't handle physical contact or social interaction and so the whole thing jut stresses me out because you put me in a crowded room full of people and then try to make me listen to more stuff I could care less about while stressing me out about people!!
I barely function in regular situations let alone anything I'm forced into! Seriously, next jury summons will equal a bridge jump death >_> not like there's a shortage in San Antonio.
It's bad enough I grew up in a house who's a bunch of hypocrites. Mum always whining that her mum let her brother get away with "Boys will be boys." and then turning around and telling me I have to accept Josh for him but it only counts towards him. Seriously, I've become 80% more social and I hate who they've made me because Josh has to be social and it's still not anough for them!! I hate who they made me and it's not fair I never hear them tell Josh "Accept her for her and just leave her alone. Don't force hr to talk. She's 26 and not your toy"
I've dealt with depression a good deal longer and live with it.
Josh is just a whiny bitch who is pissy cause I don't bow to him and kiss his butt like mum and dad do which is the only reason our brother sister relationship is shattered beyond repair.
And his "Extending the olive branch" bull is bull! It's just him trying to make himself sound good and still trying to force me >_< I wish he would just die or leave me alone!!
The only reason I don't kill myself is Sam though. Thank the gods for a little peace in life.
Listening to: Your breathing
Reading: Over your shoulder
Watching: You watching me
Playing: Mind Games
Eating: Soul on a stick